Journal of Self

What matters the most in life? What I want the most in life? I always try to define the specific aspects in life of how I wanted my life to be…. But I have alway struggled. I do not know how… I do know that I wanted to be joyful… joyful doing whatever I have […]

See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.

People try to get away from it all-to the country, to the beach, to the mountains. You always wish that you could too. Which is idiotic; you can get away from it anytime you like. By going within. Meditations – Marcus Aurelius

When I realize that everything is already perfect, more is added. Not bad…

Whoever relies on the Tao in governing men doesn’t try to force issues or defeat enemies by force of arms. For every force there is a counterforce. Violence, even well intentioned, always rebounds upon oneself. The Master does his job and then stops. He understands that the universe is forever out of control, and that

Getting caught in the motion of thoughts and desires, to do list, getting things done, things I wanted to do, books I wanted to read, stuff I wanted to learn, and all the news around the world, I was again caught up with a so call “stress” and physically migraine. Again, to realize to take

The unexamined life was not worth living. Socrates

And to have learned how to accept favors from friends without losing your self-respect or appearing ungrateful. Meditations by Marcus Aurelius

When I was driven by ego, I could not notice the body pain that was inside of me that energized those ego thoughts. Only when I realized the here and now through my body, I realized that pain body. Then I realized that this same pain causes others the same ego behavior or thoughts. This

Do you want to improve the world? I don’t think it can be done. The world is sacred. It can’t be improved. If you tamper with it, you’ll ruin it. If you treat it like an object, you’ll lose it. There is a time for being ahead, a time for being behind; a time for

Shino – James – Art Family Trip to Knong Kai

A good time to watch it talk is while you’re taking a shower. Just watch what that voice has to say. You will see that it never lets you just take peaceful shower. Your shower is for washing the body, not for watching the mind talk nonstop. See if you can stay conscious enough throughout

A true lover is like a lute it makes music only when empty as soon as it is filled the bard layer is done. If you are full of yourself, you cannot feel the sweet touch of his fingers. Empty yourself and surrender so “here” becomes intoxicated with the wine of “nowhere”. Rumi’s Little Book

Whoever relies on the Tao in governing men doesn’t try to force issues or defeat enemies by force of arms. For every force there is a counterforce. Violence, ever well intentioned, always rebounds upon oneself. The master does his job and then stops. He understands that the universe is forever out of control, and trying

Let me start with the “knowing kind of life” that I know… Make sure you have a good family, good pay check, be better than others, and having good health… I thought if I had all of thought would make me joyful or happy… I thought that having all those I would have achieved all

If you want to become whole, let yourself be partial. If you want to become straight, let yourself be crooked. If you want to become full, let yourself be empty. If you want to be reborn, let yourself die. If you want to be given everything, give everything up. tao te ching #22 i reflect…

In the pursuit of knowledge, every day something is added. In the practice of the Tao, every day something is dropped. Less and less do you need to force things, until finally you arrive at non-action. When nothing is done, nothing is left undone. True mastery can be gained by letting things go their own

Learning how to yield is learning the true strength… Learning how to let go is learning the true flow of life… Applying those, I realized there is much greater designer, creator, or a flow of life that is much bigger than me. From learning not to take control on things or situations but learning to

Since I have gotten back on the road, there are so many different chores that I have to keep up with such as constantly looking for places to camp/grocery shop/shower/fill water and propane/do laundry and more. All those are necessary things I have to do plus working full time. However, I am 100% certain that

Stripping all the familiarity, normal comfort, and whatever the norm follows, I realized that the joy I find is a much deeper joy. i thought that the living comfort, having perfect family life, and material prosperity could give me the joy and happiness. Yes, it may… But when all those being stripped away, does it

I remembered when I came to Pescadero and Moss beach last time, my mind was wondering and worrying about being alone, lonely, and being by myself. Now, the season of those worries has passed… But my mind is now focusing the stressfulness of my job world. They said that life will give you what you

This is the funny thing about life – when you have a need, nobody wants to be with you. When your need is gone, everybody wants to be with you. It is only when the flower blossoms the bees will come. If you do not blossom, bees will not come. If you are closed bud

During my meditation this morning, I noticed my concerns on the things that are going on in my life. I noticed my heart that bubbled unstable energy. I only let them be… Not giving more thoughts or energy to keep them going… However, they were just continuing for a while… Until a thought came to

A rabbit eats carrots, is that good? A lion eats a rabbit, is that bad? A person works to help the others building a shelter, is that good? A person works on a software for shelter building and design, is that good? A person works with a computer all day everyday to build a software,

If you close your mind in judgements and traffic with desires, your heart will be troubled. If you keep your mind from judging and aren’t led by senses, your heart will find peace. tao te ching #52

When you feel pain, simply view it as energy. Just start seeing these inner expectations as energy passing through your heart and before the eye of you consciousness. Then Relax. Do the opposite of contracting and closing. Relax and release. Relax your heart until you are actually face-to-face with the exact place where it hurts.

Lately, I started to notice my emotion more and more… I feel the tension that come up before an anxiety and fear… Noticing the pressure in my chest before the feeling of deep sadness. Noticing the opening of the flow coming out from my heart before the feeling of gratefulness. Before, I would only feel

Reflecting on what I’m thankful for today… I’m thankful that I have my dog, Tsali, that I can go to give him a hug first thing in the morning. Love the feeling of him in my arms and he letting me to hug him for a long long time. I’m thankful that I have found