Taking time to reflect, I observed that there are a lot of problem-solving thoughts in my mind. Sometimes, some worried or fearful thoughts flow by, but as soon as I realize it and acknowledge how pointless they are… many times, they resolve themselves and disappear. Not that they’re totally gone… from time to time, they come back… but again, noticing + realizing + the deep knowing of how pointless those are, together, it makes them evaporate quicker and quicker each time.
Taking time to reflect, I tried to find what I wanted to write in this journal. The more I realized, the less I felt I had to write down. All that seemed to matter and be important, needing to be written down… again… evaporates and resolves itself as something that really doesn’t matter that much. All those thoughts in my head come and go… knowing how transient all things are; thoughts, feelings, emotions, fear… I feel that it’s all so normal to have… Nothing is that special about them. I only feel like I want to capture the love and gratitude I feel. But how can I capture that and put it here… on “paper”? It’s definitely a deep feeling inside of me… and those transient thoughts and feelings are also in me but bubbling above that deep love and gratitude within me… Maybe that’s how I can describe it, now.
Taking time to reflect, I think one obvious thing I learned during my trip to Thailand in December… one thing that really sticks with me… My sister inspired me to take better care of my body. Not that she forced it on me. But she set an example just by doing it for herself. Waking up early every day to take care of her physical body and making sure to stay active during the day… that really inspires me. I was totally focused on my internal/mind discovery but totally overlooking how important it is to also take care of my physical body. Since then, I’ve been doing better at being more conscious not only of taking care of my mind and spirit… but also my body. The words “mind, body, spirit” really hit a home run for me after this trip. I started to notice that good physical health also affects my mind and spirit. Doing yoga isn’t enough for me to burn off all the rushing thoughts from how heavy my work life is. I need some good physical or cardio workout to keep this earthly body/suit I have in this world at its optimal level, maintaining my mind, body, and spirit.
A few days ago, I talked to my sister. I had a joyful feeling after she told me that she’s now also practicing meditation. How funny and joyful that is. She inspired me to take care of my physical health… and when I was in Thailand doing my meditation… without knowing, I have also inspired her to not overlook her “mind, and spirit”.
Just love and gratitude… just that.