I believe I have found the best spot to camp after a year of traveling and being no mad… The temperature is perfect, the phone service is great, and it is so beautiful and serene.
However, even all those are great… Majority of my attention is on my mind… My unstoppable thinking… The anxiety and some resentment me that keep creating a vicious cycle of unnecessary thoughts and bad emotions.
I’m sitting here in front of this beautiful mountains… But I realized how much attention I pay to really look at this beautiful mountains in front of me. Not much… My attention went inside of me… More about thoughts than anything else.
I do know… The fact that I’m realizing of what is going on in me is a good start to realize and to really KNOW me… The nature of this being, that is me.
This knowing is deep and much deeper than what others have told you about it… It is deeper when I realized it in myself.
It is definitely not an easy process… The body pain, negative thoughts, and negative emotions in me are very noticeable and I realized how it has caused me pain and even more than that disease.
Being able to notice them is already removing myself from all of it in a way… Removing myself from all the noises helps me to realize this nature of being.