During the past few weeks, I noticed a lot of tension in me… a lot of discomfort… and I didn’t know why…
Yesterday evening, I picked up my book to reread it where I have left of last time…
And it goes…
The mind exists in a state of “not enough” and so is always greedy for more.
When you identified with mind, you get bored and restless very easily.
Boredom means that the mind is hungry for more stimulus, more food for thoughts, and its hunger is not being satisfied.
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Prejudice of any kind implies that you are identified with the thinking mind. It means that you don’t see the other human being anymore, but only your own concept of human being.
To reduce the aliveness of another human being to a concept is already a form of violence.
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Feel the energy of your inner body. Immediately mental noise slows down and ceases. Feel it in your hands, your feet, your abdomen, your chest. Feel that life that you are, the life that animate the body.
The body then becomes a doorway, so to speak, into a deeper sense of aliveness underneath the fluctuating emotions and underneath your thinking.
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Become at ease with the state of “not knowing.” This takes you beyond mind because the mind is always trying to conclude and interpret. It is afraid of not knowing. So, when you can be at ease with not knowing, you have already gone beyond the mind. A deeper knowing that is non-conceptual then arises out of that state.
Stillness Speaks by Eckart Tolle
After reading those passages, I realized that I was totally back in my thinking mind without realizing it again. This time, the thinking mind was less distinctive for me. It came in the form that “I knew how this works… This is the process… I have figured it out. This is how I have to do it… .”
Then after I have realized that… I let go those thoughts I have noticed that it is actually “another thought”… then… the feeling of not knowing came in…
Yes, it is not comfortable for my mind at all… but I noticed how relax my body became. And I notice the true silence in me… The thought crept in again without me realizing it…
Don’t be cocky and think I know… Be vigilant and always observe the mind and the body.