During these past years, I have realized that I have always been not the one that making a decision in life…. There is always something that guided me, inspired me, or even interrupted me to land me on this path of life.
Started from being inspired or motivated by either well thoughtful plans or even random thoughts that make me make decision to do something… Some by some random situation outside of me… Some by deep suffering in me that I no longer can withstand.
I realized that I was always been directed to this point in life… it seems as if I was making all decisions to get me here… But…
Now I realized, life takes me here… Not me taking “my” life here.
Realizing that… I realized the more practical way of living… which is… to always be ok with whatever it is that this moment is providing to me. There is no point to disagree with this present moment in life. Whom I would be disagreeing to? And what good would it bring from doing that? Nothing… And no point of doing so.
It is true that it is easier saying than doing… But if I don’t start to accept this fact now… How much longer do I need to wait until I can be aligned with life. How much longer will it take me to start being at peace with life…
The answer is to start doing it now… Every day and every moment…
What I mean by start doing it now… doing what?
Listening, sensing, and noticing those that arise that take you to this moment… then you will be able to accept the fact that there is more than that little you in life. The life is much bigger than you…
After doing so, I realized that life has more dept than my old superficial belief of “my” life. I realized the true meaning of trust… Trust in life.
I realized when I trust in life… Life opens up to me to see its dept… Deeper understanding… Understanding the deeper meaning of surrendering.
