Before, I thought that the perfect life for me was to be able to venture out from Thailand and challenge myself to find a new life in the US… to have a good job, a nice home, a good partner, and to able make my own decision and support myself.
After I had done all the chasing, I had it all. But… I was being even more unhappy. Realizing that, I felt lost. I didn’t know who I was and what I really wanted from this world anymore.
Now, because of that experience… I know that chasing dreams was a very important process for me to realize that all that I thought I needed from the outside world were not really what I need to be fulfilled, to feel at peace, and to love living life. Relying on those things to make me happy is not a way to find the true joy or happiness in my life.
Without going through that process and realization, I would have continued to try to chase more things hoping that it would fulfill me… I’m glad that I had done all of the dream chasing… and realized that I was not there… and that I was lost…
So I stop trying to look for more things from the outside and look more deeply inside of me.
Now I find peace and true joy inside of me even I didn’t have all of those I thought I needed.
