For a while, I thought that I have leaned and known about myself well. It seems to only be that way because I stayed in my own solitude… Being by myself, things were more peaceful.
When I started to interact with my before “normal” circumstances, I just fail back into my own habits. Again, I was back to my normal reactions from uncontrollable emotions. I exploded.
The only thing that is different is that… Soon after, I knew that I didn’t want to feel that way again and I knew that I had better choice to choose for my own feeling.. Even I know… Emotions: fear, sadness, and anger, were still rolling inside of me… I watched it going crazy, I cried, I felt the sadness, and I felt the anger. All of the emotions and feelings are just telling me that it is all about me… my little me that needed to be protected, guarded, and make sure that it was being treated fairly, nicely, respectfully, and lovingly. Oh… how little my little me is…
I soon realized the hidden fear in me… I was fearful to the new challenge, I was unconsciously wanting to be pampered. When things were not going as I unconsciously wanted, I was having tantrums…. Tantrums to the universe and people around me. I’m sorry.
Moreover, during this menstrual cycle, my emotions of fear and anger are strong.
I’m here to realize that I’m not that little me.
Life is surely full; full of experiences…