Another realization just came to me… when I was going through a lot of emotional rollercoaster with my current relationship situation, it was quite easier to find peace. During that, if I could just close my eyes and stopped thinking… all those dramatic pains subside noticeably.
However, when my life situation is less dramatic, ironically, I found it was “harder” to find peace or have more peaceful mind… when I closed my eyes, I found peace… much much less noticeable… then my mind kept wandering and thought that I was not there yet…it said “It should be difficult to obtain peace. Keep looking!” The mind does not believe that the peace is already here and now…
Oh… how ironic my mind is….
– Humming Sparrow
